>:3
@ 7:21 PM

We should be weak enough to get right back down when we stand up.

First day of school in the new year
@ 4:59 PM

It was pretty much as bad as I thought it would be. It was actually really bad. Everyone around me had lots of fun, but I seemed to get nothing. I got my presents from my bestie, which were a bunch of raddy old sandals. We were planning on hanging out over break to exchange our gifts but when we got the chance to, it all went bad. It's really weird how I don't hang out with people outside of my city this whole break yet they mess with me.

The night before I decided to take my friend's pants to school, even though she already had pants, which was a pain in the ass by the way (THEY WERE XXL PANTS!). I hate taking stuff on the bus. I got there 60 minutes before the last bell rang so I left her pants on the ceeling. When the bell rang I walked to class WITH the pants on me. I didn't even know why I had them on and completely forgot about them, ugh. After class I ran out hoping to see if no one would see me with them. They weren't big, but just flat out embarrassing. I kinda already suspected that I would get laughed at; my school's filled with nerds. I went up to the office hoping that she was there and she would take them from me, but she wasn't there. I felt really bad and pissed. People are so damn ugly in my school. If I see anyone wearing the same pants I brought her during the rest of the school year, I'm going to laugh at them silly. I swear. (That'll take a lot of chicken to get into THAT thing)

My friend got me stuff from Pokemon and a huge box of Pokeballs, ha. Not surprising since everyone never knows that I'm a pokemon trainer. Seriously, just look at my Pokebook wall. I gave out PokeChips to everyone cause I know I'm not going to use all 500 by myself.

A Lesson To Boys
@ 4:53 PM

Girls like a guy who can stand up for himself, because if he can’t, how can she be so sure that you can take care of her, also? We love reassurance and comfort.. and most of the time, it’s quite often. That’s never going to change. Most of the time, we’d be okay that you are with your boys, just remember not to say anything when we are with ours. We are over protective if you give us a reason to be. Treat us the way you want to be treated, which means.. no bs about the boy we were talking to or just a simple male friend we are hanging out with. If you’re gonna trip about other boys, we are most definitely gonna trip about other girls. Another given. Because two can play that game. Girls like to be held, and kisses on the forehead are so much cuter than a massive make out session in public. White crewneck and dark denims = turn on. The absolute simplest way to dress, but also the sexiest. Whoever told you that a girl’s gonna cost you your bank account is wrong. Money doesn’t buy love. A perfect gentlemen pays for all expenses, but the world is made up of flaws, so it’s okay. Take turn paying, and if she insists that you pay all the time? Leave. (Okay, maybe not, but do something about it.) Girls do spoil their guy, if the same is given in return. Homemade gifts are often THE cutest. Random visits and gifts mean more than when you are “supposed to do it (Valentine’s day, Christmas, etc.) Girls need their girls, just like you need your boys for.. whatever your reason may be. That is the absolute worst reason to get jealous over, she’s not going to turn lesbian. When she askes you for a favor, try to do it. She’ll get frustrated and you’ll end up in an agrument. Simple things like texts or a cute IM is nice, just don’t smother her. Ex-girlfriends and the past bring up a horrible subject. And although you and your ex might still be friends, make sure that your girl nows that she means nothing, that reassurance will never stop, never. And most importantly, stay consistent. Girls go absolutely crazy when you were sweet the first few months and.. soon, it fades away. Keep chasing, and when you feel like you want to stop, let her know - don’t just leave her, don’t just let her go.

(via elsienguyen)

@ 4:51 PM

What's on my mind?
@ 4:51 PM

A Big Mac. Oh baby, how I love you.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011 @ 11:46 PM

LOL
Tuesday, January 4, 2011 @ 8:32 PM

Cubans are a minority in my school.

I love how whenever a Cuban sees another Cuban we get all ecstatic.

"Holy shit, another Cuban! HI!"

@ 11:54 AM

"I guess I have to say good morning."
"Please don't stay."
"I have to. You fixed my heart."

An ideal woman.
Monday, January 3, 2011 @ 11:52 PM

1) Don't have respect. For everyone, even your parents. It's a total turn on when I find guys cursing at their parents. That's total respect.
2) Don't be trustworthy, meaning you should lie; being honest with your feelings is bad. Don't open up and hide / lie about everything, especially important details about yourself. We don't want to get to know THE real you.
3) Be a slacker. Everybody likes lazy people. Don't accomplish something big.
4) Stink with the stench of smoke and alcohol and anything better than that.
5) Shortness is cute, at least to me. I think it's awesome for a guy to be shorter than me. Oh, and they have to be younger. Younger guys is a yes yes.
6) Don't be different. We live in a society where guys live to party and fuck around with girls. Please, be like that. Live to "git m0n3y and fuck b!tch3z" (LOL)
7) Since you're a guy, girls expect you to play video games. Enjoy it, but make sure waste your fucking life on them. We aren't asking for any of your time at all but we at least deserve none. And ALWAYS ditch your girl to play games. That's tolerable.
8) Don't be confident enough to introduce us to your friends. Then we know that you are scared to act the same in front of your friends. It isn't extremely irritating when guys act like complete douche bags just to "fit in" with the group.
9) Bad hygiene. I think that's a given.
10) Jealousy is not cute, but only to a certain limit, then it just gets cute. Which leads to clingyness. Nobody needs their own space.
11) Any special talents such as: Cooking/baking, dancing, singing, drawing, writing, acting is a no-no. Farting, burping, and disgusting things is always a plus! 12) "Hot" - Don't chill, be more aggressive. Be ugly, don;t think at all before you say something that might please us. 'Cause you know, us girls are hard.< /br> 13) Don't be polite. Manners and confidence in yourself makes you too cocky. Being modest is always a minus.
14) Have goals. You should want to do something with your life and have good self motivation.
15) I understand that cursing isn't the new "cool" these days but I prefer guys with a less expanded vocabulary. I want to hear the words, fuck, shit, damn, and hell over and over.
16) Have a good sense of humor. I don't know about you, but I love to joke around. And it's important for guys to always put a smile on a girl's face.
(THE IRONY)!
17) Know how to handle situations, correctly. This goes back to the whole aggressive thing. I get that guys should be the more dominant one in the relationship but you shouldn't blow up and say hurtful things during a fight, cause you'll most likely regret it later.
18) Always have our backs. You should always support what your girl does, no matter how stupid it is. For what reason? 'Cause she's yours, and you love her.
19) Looks aren't everything, but they sure are something. Looks are most likely what interests a person into talking to someone in the first place. So look decent, don't go around looking like total crap with bad style. In other words, don't make us look bad, and we won't do that either.
20) Fucking flirt all the time. I stress this a lot. We won't get mad because you're talking to her, or because she's your friend. But yeah, we will get happy when you guys have late night phone calls/text messages, or any phone calls for that matter, and you spend your whole day talking to her. Limits are for queers. 
21) We should deserve bad treatment. Treat us like every other girl you talk to.
22) Don't be understanding. We are perfect so we will not make mistakes.
Unfortunately I haven't done any more edits. It'll take me years to get the ones at the bottom. But hey, I'll do all the recent posts! :D

@ 3:53 PM



Hehehe, I'll love this song forever and ever.

@ 3:40 PM

Tried to edit my pictures a little differently. FAIL'D. They look horrible, I know. Deal with it.

Friends
@ 2:35 PM

Don't cross your friends, they're all that we have besides our family. Don't ditch your friends. You might have boyfriends/girlfriends, but they aren't going to be always there for you. Maybe they will, but usually they aren't. Your friends are. Don't ditch them, it's not very smart.

You shouldn't care about how your friends look, and when people talk bad about your friends to you, you should stick up for them. Don't play along.

Don't talk smack about your friends and you shouldn't even say personal things about your friends to other people, unless they permit you to talk about it. That's just disrespectful.

You should accept your friends for who they are. Support pretty much anything that your friends do, because they're your friends for a reason. In my eyes, my friends can do no wrong. If your friend doesn't like something, you shouldn't do it.

Friends don't compete. Your friends with this person because they have something special. Something that you don't have. You should congratulate when they get awarded, and not become jealous. When you compete, instead of working together, that's when fights start to happen and you'll eventually lose them.

Treat your friends like gold. And if they don't treat you like gold, find new friends that will. Find friends that will accept you.

I don't have much to say
@ 2:02 PM

I can never find the right words, but I have it all here; in my heart, and in my head.
That right there is my problem.

@ 1:59 PM

"I want to be with someone who wants to be with me all the time, not just sometimes."

@ 1:49 PM

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@ 1:46 PM

Just say what you mean and mean what you say. Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths, and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better than lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about; indifference hurts more than angry words.

I really want
@ 1:11 AM

A Harvard hoodie and sweatpants from Forever 21.

'Cause I'm definitely going there when I grow up, ya dig?

Labels: LOL did I really just say that

I love you, so much.
Sunday, January 2, 2011 @ 9:53 PM

You're so freaking cute. Fdsojfnjdsnfkndsf

Last last night made me realize how much I love dancing.
@ 7:43 PM

What you probably thought:



What I actually did:


Lolnotreally

Thursday, December 30, 2010 @ 11:00 PM

I never say sorry. So if I apologize to you, you probably really deserved it.

Why is this song so relevant right now
@ 4:03 PM

I know boy, when you look at me
You don't know how I feel
Cause I'm usually so nonchalant
My feelings I conceal
But I want you to know
Oh, I want you to know

I must admit I've felt this way for more than quite a while
But I can't hold it no longer when I see that handsome smile
Can't wait no more
Oh, I can't wait no more

Boy, to tell you the truth
It's always been you
I'm all about you
Oh, boy
No one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

Maybe I'm a fool for speaking up but I don't mind
Cause a boy like you will come around like
Once in a million times
So what do I do?
Tell me what do I do

And the look that you are givin' me gives me hope to believe
So for you baby I'll change my ways I'll
Wear my heart on my sleeve
Got nothin' to lose
I've got nothin' to lose

Boy, to tell you the truth
It's always been you
I'm all about you
Oh, boy
No one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

Boy when you smile
Not a place I'd rather be
Just stay for a while
Then you'll see that you should be right here with me
Cause I love everything you do
That's why I have to take this time baby to tell you
Oh, and now you know
And now you know

Boy, to tell you the truth
It's always been you
I'm all about you
Oh, boy
No one can do me the way you do
It's always been you
I'm all about you

I'm all about you

Hello darling.
@ 3:58 PM

Why is it so hard for you to understand how much I love you?

I wish I could prove my love to you in some way so you'd believe me forever and never doubt me again.

I admit
@ 12:42 PM

I'm gullible. Too gullible. I fall for anything. Even the things that people say that're obvious lies.

Sometimes I sit myself down and think about everything I know. What I've heard, seen, and experienced. And I wonder how many of those things are actually true or right.

I believe in almost anything, and it's not hard to convince me or change the way I think. So whatever anyone says, it sticks to me and I believe it until something comes along to change my mind.

I'm easily changeable. I'm easily influenced. I'm gullible. And I hate that about myself. It just makes everything in my life a hundred times more complicated.

"Jokes"
@ 12:35 PM

There's a limit to jokes and if you cross them, you'll end up hurting people's feelings. You'll make yourself sound ignorant. It bothers me when people crack jokes about people's height, race, weight, appearance, and family. We all have insecurities and you shouldn't bring people down even more by making a "joke" about something they might be sensitive about. "I was just kidding, why can't you take a joke?" It wasn't funny, it was offensive.

I don't want to talk to you.
@ 12:32 PM

No, I didn't lose my phone. I'm not busy. The text message didn't fail to send. Facebook messenger didn't crash. There's nothing wrong with my phone or my internet.

I just didn't want to reply to you.

@ 12:17 PM

After a while I stopped giving people chances. I stopped trusting and therefore, I stopped getting disappointed. I had this mindset that I couldn’t be let down if I never gave anyone an opportunity. Now I’m wondering about how many people I could have kept in my life if I wasn’t too scared to take those risks.

@ 12:15 PM

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@ 12:10 PM

"I rely on everyone else for happiness, because I have none of my own. I am just another face lost in the movements of the world, another pair of eyes searching for what I long for, and what I am here for. I want somebody too tell me it'll all be alright, even if it's far from the truth. I'm not looking to be anyone's anything, I just want some clarity, the light at the end of the tunnel. wrecklessness and low-level thinking, among all of the other sub-standard bullshit is done, I'm done with it all.

I want to be able to let go, I want my dreams to become reality, and I want happiness at its fullest extent. Maybe all that wont come to me now, but I wont sit around and wait all my life. I'll live to the fullest extent, no matter what happens."

Source: Some guy's blog's autobiography.

@ 12:09 PM

Who the fuck would want to be in love with me?

(via ashandnature)

@ 12:05 PM

@ 12:04 PM

@ 12:02 PM

Put it into action.
@ 11:58 AM

Saying something and doing something are completely different things.

I’d rather have someone do something for me without saying it first. Actions speak louder than words. So stop telling me that you miss me and start doing something about it.

It's sad how
@ 11:53 AM

I can't post what I want on my blog anymore.

I can't "blog my heart out" like I used to.

I can't mention names because everyone knows everyone. It's a small fucking world.

I have 73 posts on my private blog. And they're all long, written in the course of only a couple months.

That's how much I want to talk about shit that bothers me, but I can't.

Why? I don't know.

@ 11:53 AM

@ 11:52 AM

How to get a mass number of followers on Tumblr:
@ 11:50 AM

Post half naked pictures of yourself.

Confession 1.
@ 11:47 AM

No matter how hard I try, I'll always be the second choice. Always.

I'll never know
@ 11:45 AM

People that do stupid and unexpected shit make me repeat the word "WHY" a million times.

I don't fucking get why people have to do shit that pisses everyone off.

One person
@ 11:38 AM

That I'm not scared of.
I'm not scared of being judged or criticized when I'm talking to that person.
I can be stupid and they'll accept me. They'll just laugh it off.
They consider me as special. Therefore I feel special.
They won't hurt me, they won't break my heart.
Someone that I don't have to worry about because that person will most likely be always there for me and I'll always be there for that person.
Someone that will always talk to me.
Someone that will always answer my calls.
Someone that never brings me down or ruins my mood.

And that person never fails to make me smile.

It's sad that, that person probably doesn't know who I wrote this for.

@ 11:37 AM

@ 12:09 AM

I hate waiting for this shit.

Update
Wednesday, December 29, 2010 @ 11:20 PM

Past four days were wonderful.

Only because I spent it with Monica. Hehehehehehehehehe

I loved it.

Monica was probably bored but I had fun while I was with her.

I really like spending time with this girl. Seriously.

We do some stupid shit. But it's so funny.

Went shopping today for like 9 hours. My feet ache. I'm exhausted.

The mall has some good sales though. Might go again tomorrow.



P.S. I apologize to all the people we called last night.
I don't know what got into us.
LOL

@ 11:00 PM

Monica: Is this what it feels like to be high?
Me: No it feels better.
Monica: What the fuck
Both: PWAHAHAHAHA

Saturday, December 25, 2010 @ 9:25 AM

WHAT A F'ING WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS.

It's been a whole year..
Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 11:49 AM

Since I first made this blog. I read my first post and I realized how much I've changed since then.

What I've learned this past year: Time heals everything. And you'll eventually forget it all, even the pain.

Posting from iTouch is so annoying.

@ 8:55 AM

I miss you.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010 @ 6:05 PM

' myu says:
*i'll protect it
Monica says:
*with wut ur chest
*k im fucked
*jk
*omg
*im so funny
' myu says:
*LOL fuck you
*LL
Monica says:
*LOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSaf
*LOLLLLLLLLLLLLlll
*im lafing
*omg
' myu says:
*omg ihy
*LOL
Monica says:
*OLLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLol
*LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
*im srsly dying
*LOL .
' myu says:
*if you say that infront of people I SWEAR
Monica says:
*i wont
*lOOOOOOooL

@ 4:03 PM



So true.

@ 2:45 PM



":(" because this picture's quality is shitty.

But on the bright side, it's warm enough to wear shorts.

Whoever is
@ 11:01 AM

Spamming my page with refresh trying to give me more views,
STOP IT.

You're getting on my fucking nerves.

And I know you're using Firefox. And you live in Poland..I think.
Don't ask me how I know.

Dear mom and dad, Santa or God
Tuesday, December 21, 2010 @ 11:52 PM

WHOEVER THAT CAN GRANT MY WISH.

I don't want money, love, care, shelter, food, clothes, a car, a cellphone, or a new computer.

Cause that's all useless to me.

What I want is a CAMERA.

All I want for Christmas is you a camera.

Loljk but seriously.

Potential weakness:
@ 11:14 PM

Forgetting to take care of your own needs.

So I guess this is telling me that I put myself last and put everyone before me. Which is sometimes true.

Labels: astrology

Hahaha
@ 11:04 PM

"Be warned of the seductive qualities of Libra. They can captivate you with their charms like charmer woos a snake."

LOL'dddddddddd what the fuck

@ 11:00 PM

This combination of Signs (both of whom are ruled by Venus, making a fine start for any relationship) will admire beauty and luxury and, as such, be prepared to indulge each other. With much in common, there is always something to do which pleases both partners. Libra brings intellectual sparkle, social savvy and a sense of adventure to Taurus, while Taurus provides Libra with financial stability, adoration and creature comforts. Libra also profits greatly from the strong Taurus sense of direction and decisiveness. On the sensual side, Libra (an Air Sign) adds inventiveness and creativity to the affair, although Taurus is almost always the initiator of any intimacy. Both signs tend toward laziness, but fortunately, the last place this usually occurs is in the sexual arena.

On the more negative side, Taurus is possessive and enjoys staying at home while Libra, something of a flirt, loves the social life and enjoys a wide circle of friends of the opposite sex. Although any Libra flirtation will seldom be serious, the jealous nature of Taurus can create a problem in this regard. Another source of resentment can be Libra's extravagant nature which clashes with the Taurus need to stick to a budget. Libra is usually reluctant to commit and often feels hemmed-in by Taurus, something that Taurus finds insulting. Thus, if neither of these partners is willing to talk, then such a cycle is apt to continue and the relationship may become a resentful standoff.

The foundation for a lasting romance does exist here, but Taurus must be patient and develop an acceptance of Libra's life-long hemming-and-hawing over friendships, lovers and even restaurant menus. On the other hand, Libra needs to become more sensitive to the gentle feelings of Taurus. Since Libra must have a partner who will share everything, Taurus needs to go along wherever Libra desires to go. If not, then Libra is apt to find a friend who will cater to his or her needs and Taurus will be relegated to simply waiting at home.

Labels: astrology

You probably won't read this but,
@ 3:06 AM

I'm so scared of losing you.

I feel like you aren't happy, and I'm only making things worse for you.

I say this a million times, but I'm sorry for sucking at cheering you up.

I've always sucked at cheering people up, actually. But that's not a good enough excuse.

I want to make you happy. I want to make you smile in the darkest times.

I need to try harder.

God.
@ 3:04 AM

I cannot stand it when people take me too seriously. Dude, I wasn't even being serious. I was being sarcastic, and joking around like ALWAYS. Oh right, you probably don't know me well enough. Well, my bad.

I'M SORRY I SOUND SO SERIOUS ON THE INTERNET/TEXTING.
I'll start typing lyk dizzz! :)) if you guys want me to.

@ 2:44 AM



Whoop-dee-doo. The fucking Eclipse. Not even that great. Chill out people.

That's what you get
Monday, December 20, 2010 @ 7:14 PM

Caday says:
*obv ballers
' myu says:
*you're a loser just for saying the word baller
Caday says:
*I've probably consumed 20 gallons of water today.
' myu says:
*LOLL
*and how many times did you use the bathroom
Caday says:
*600
' myu says:
*grossssssss
Caday says:
*its miserable
' myu says:
*your fault
Caday says:
*so not my fault
' myu says:
*then who's
Caday says:
*whoever passed it to me
' myu says:
*and you took it
Caday says:
*obviously
' myu says:
*SO YOUR FAULT.
Caday says:
*nope.
' myu says:
*you make no sense son
Caday says:
*kush is my cologne.
' myu says:
*that shit smells horrible
Caday says:
*so good
*time for another bottle of water.
' myu says:
*i'd be siiiiick.
Caday says:
*its miserable.
' myu says:
*LOL so funny
Caday says:
*not.
' myu says:
*it is.
Caday says:
*i'm never doing it again.
' myu says:
*at least you learned your lesson
Caday says:
*i'll probably do it again.

@ 12:09 PM

My problem
@ 12:07 PM

I always wait for something to happen and in the end I'm just waiting for nothing. I always feel like there will be a chance so I keep my hopes up silently but I know it never will. So then I fall back quietly and no one notices what I was feeling.

@ 11:49 AM

Love is either there, or it was never there in the first place.

Sunday, December 19, 2010 @ 9:47 PM

"Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays. But I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, or are still thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t."

@ 9:45 PM

"Just take the time to listen. Everyone is fighting a battle of their own. Day in and day out. Everyone keeps a secret which they will protect with their very lives. We pass the judgment on each other, while drawing conclusions based off what we think we know. Truth is, we don’t know a thing. The surface is a lie, and yet its the surface that we use to put together these opinions we have of another. If we were to take a step back for a moment, we could realize that things aren’t what they appear to be. A smile can mask away years of tears and frowns. Confidence could be a cover up for low self esteem. Bold actions and words could hide your fears. And the people that appear to have everything under control are habitually the ones that are the most terrified. So remember these things before you judge one or before you speak ill of another. We all will struggle, and continue to have our secrets. Nobody is as collected as they make themselves out to be you see."

The truth
@ 9:42 PM

There's a point in your life when you know who stays forever, and who's just around for a while. People change, but so do you. Sometimes for the best, and sometimes for the worst. Bad things happen to everyone, you're not in it alone. People lie, and some people just don't care how you feel. Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you're in. Everything will be okay eventually. There are always people in your life that just make your day, no matter the miles. I know about distance, I've been dealing with it all my life, so don't tell me it's easy, because it's not. But it's worth it. I'd rather keep in touch with the people I love, than just drop it and forget about it. You don't forget the ones you love. It just doesn't work like that. Give it all you've got and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you, have what you have; someone always has it worse off than you, but that doesn't mean that your pain doesn't count.

Labels: throw back

@ 9:38 PM

There’s nothing like deep breaths after laughing that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons.

— The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Trust
@ 9:31 PM

Love is like handing someone a gun and letting it point to your head, believing that he won't pull the trigger.

"She doesn't really care about anything."
@ 9:25 PM

Sometimes,
@ 9:18 PM

It's better to face your problems. Deal with it and get it over with. It's like when you're trying to peel off a super sticky band-aid off of your wound, or when you're too nervous to do your presentation when the teacher calls on you. It's better to end it quick so you don't have to deal with it later.

Omg
@ 8:15 PM

I hate wrapping presents.

What's this,
Saturday, December 18, 2010 @ 10:06 PM

This heavy feeling in my chest. It feels like a stab in my heart.

In other words, I'm hurt.

@ 9:44 PM

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

— Mitch Albom

@ 9:43 PM

Thinking of you,
@ 9:41 PM

Makes my heart ache.

@ 2:54 PM


^ LOL, is this really what guys do.

@ 2:53 PM

@ 2:52 PM

Why must we treat the ones that love us like shit?
@ 2:42 PM

Is it because we know how much they love us and we know that they're always going to be there, so we take them for granted?

Sometimes, you treat the people that care less about you better than the people that love and care about you the most.

People are strange.

Friday, December 17, 2010 @ 9:50 PM



Oh my God why am I laughing so hard

@ 9:47 AM

Remember,
@ 9:45 AM

I was there for you when no one else was.

@ 9:43 AM

Many things do not last forever. but some do. A good song, a good book, a picture, or a good memory. A memory you can unfold in your darkest times, peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there.

@ 9:42 AM

@ 9:42 AM

@ 9:42 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2010 @ 8:26 PM

Why am I so scared and paranoid and worried when it comes to you? What gives you the ability to make me feel like this?

@ 7:04 PM

I feel so out of place.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010 @ 10:03 AM

-gets candy gram
"From Secret Admirer. I wuv you. ...What is this."
"Myung did you send this to him?"
"No.."
LOL omg

Tuesday, December 14, 2010 @ 11:22 PM

I like to crack myself up, because no one else does it.

Okay so.
@ 6:25 PM

This is my view on the guys that hit on me.

So this is how I reject people
@ 6:13 PM

Guy: Aye, come over here. ;)

Monday, December 13, 2010 @ 8:38 PM

Why do I write?
@ 8:38 PM

To make myself feel better.

I'm lying to myself.
@ 8:26 PM

I give myself false hope and expectations that never match up to reality. I assume too quickly. My brain sugar coats things and makes things seem better than they actually are. I create problems and worries for myself by over analyzing just about everything that comes and goes in my mind. I think too much about the smallest, most useless, and insignificant actions and details. I make them seem worse and bigger, causing a dramatic distraction to myself and others. I always worry about what could be, and what I wish would happen, but I never put anything into action because I'm afraid of failure. I tell myself that things will work and I try to believe in the tiniest bit of hope even though something inside tells me that it won't. I can't make something out of nothing. I'm living in this fantasy world, created by years and years of day dreaming where everything good really does happen.

Labels: I feel weird today

@ 8:24 PM

"I mean, it’s stupid to miss someone you didn’t even get along with. But I don’t know, it was nice, you know, having someone you could always fight with."

I just want to know that you'll be there.
@ 8:16 PM

I want to know that all the things you tell me are true. I want to know that the friendship we share is meaningful. I want to rely on you, without being scared that you'll leave me. I want to trust you, and stop doubting. I want to be important to you.

Hear me out.
@ 8:05 PM

No matter how many times you fuck up, or how many people you lose, you're a good person. You might as well be Superman if you plan on living the perfect life.

So just like that,
@ 7:52 PM

We were over.

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@ 7:02 PM

I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine.

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^ LOLOL'd

@ 3:46 PM

"I'd like a McWeiner, supersized. And a milkshake."

@ 9:49 AM

Christmas treeing on an Algebra test is the way to go.

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Friday, December 10, 2010 @ 3:05 PM

I know what I said. But it was a long time ago, and things change.

I feel nothing.
@ 3:02 PM

When I should be feeling overwhelming guilt and hatred towards myself for doing something horrible behind your back.

Unproductive day
@ 2:35 PM

Stayed home from school, AGAIN because I came home at 12 last night. I had a test today and a shit load of homework that I didn't even start on so my parents let me skip school. They're nice.

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I'm so tired of elevated hopes and failed expectations.

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@ 11:41 AM

So no matter what you've been through, no matter what you're into, no matter what you see when you look outside your window, brown grass or green grass, picket fence or barbed wire; never ever put them down. You just lift your arms higher, raise em till’ your arms are tired. Let em’ know you’re there.That you're struggling and surviving, that you're gonna persevere.

— Lupe Fiasco

Why are my horoscopes so accurate..
@ 11:38 AM

Should you have been more patient with that certain someone? More understanding? More willing to take the time to train them properly? Nah. Stop sighing, and get dressed. The next lucky contestant is looking for you right now. Go!

Compatibility: Taurus
Mood: Guilty
Lucky Color: Sky Blue
Lucky Number: 66
Lucky Time of Day: 5pm

The things that're in bold are what scared me.

Thursday, December 9, 2010 @ 11:59 PM

Pokingsmot

@ 8:04 PM

"I smell weed.."

@ 5:22 PM

It feels nice when you hug someone you've missed.

How am I?
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 @ 12:19 AM

Unlike most people, when people ask how I'm doing, I actually tell them how I'm doing.

Alone
Tuesday, December 7, 2010 @ 9:45 PM

I feel like I can't rant about my feelings to anyone because I'm afraid that they won't care. It's like being surrounded by people but you're unable to find not even one person to talk to. I can open up to just about anyone if they're willing to listen. When I'm in need, no one comes to the rescue. And it's partially my fault because I don't ask for help. I wait for it. And when everyone else needs help, they come to me, expecting something out of me, like I can do something. The best I can do is comfort you. But I can't solve your problems for you. I've got some of my own.

@ 9:44 PM

You can only see as far as you think.

Even after all that,
@ 9:43 PM

We still pretend nothing's wrong at all.
When clearly, there is.

@ 9:43 PM

Nobody notices what I do until I don't do it.
@ 9:41 PM

So start appreciating what I do for you, before I stop doing it for your ungrateful ass.

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Delete my blog?
@ 9:36 PM

I don't think anyone really reads this anymore, and I have nothing to write about most of the time so I have to dig things out of my head and that's a lot of work.

Nothing to talk about, nothing to talk about
@ 9:30 PM

I'm going to talk about my boring day.

I woke up this morning, my room was -100 degrees as usual. Got dressed, wore a skirt and went out in 33 degree weather. Yup, everyone now thinks I'm crazy. Even I think I'm crazy.

Got a really sweet text message from my friend. Made my day basically.

Went to the guidance counselor to talk about retaking Algebra II since I have a C in it currently and she told me I couldn't because I got an A on my exam. Not fair. I don't want a C.

Um. That's about it.

I plan on dressing warmer tomorrow.

Sunday, December 5, 2010 @ 9:54 PM


^ On repeat.

Labels: song

Who Is
@ 7:20 PM



I gave it up, but I guess it was not enough
Cause she never seemed satisfied
I know I'm not perfect
But at the end of the day, who is?

Labels: song

I keep things to myself.
@ 12:33 AM

But all you have to do is ask and I’d tell you anything you want to know.

That’s just how I work. I guess that’s what you have over me.

vintagedolls

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^ Me. All the time. Everyone tells me to sit the fuck down. LOL

Saturday, December 4, 2010 @ 6:10 PM

"So what happened between you and your girlfriend?"
"She stopped cooking for me. If she don't cook, I fire her."

Friday, December 3, 2010 @ 8:17 PM

Love makes you stupid.

@ 7:55 PM

Be honest (to yourself): give me at least 3 GOOD reasons why you are with alan?
@ 7:39 PM

1) Because I love him.
2) Because he's cute. Wait, no. He's adorable.
3) Because he's better than any guy I've ever met.

And that's why I'm "waiting" for him. You probably asked this question because you think I'm stupid for staying with someone I can barely communicate with. Well I see potential in him, possibly even my future.

Ask awaaaaaaaay~*~*~*

@ 7:16 PM

Myung is so pretty. Really, don't let anyone tell her different or even let Myung berate herself.

Aw.

@ 6:13 PM

"Stop eating everything in the house, damn it."

Hm.
Thursday, December 2, 2010 @ 11:34 PM

I'd like to thank you for being kind to me today. Even after I treated you like shit because I hate(d) your guts. I thought it would be awkward to face you one on one again but it wasn't.

Well damn.
@ 9:04 PM

A: get with the time its pokemon december

Me: Well I'm a rebel.

A: no more like a outcast

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@ 7:46 PM



Fuck you math.

The feelings will always be there even when you try to push them aside.
@ 6:54 PM

They say you never let go of the one you truly love. Not because you don't want to, but because your heart won't let you. Even if you try to forget the memories you've shared, the love you received and gave, and all the shit you guys went through together, it'll be impossible to forget those intense feelings. Their voice. The way they knew you better than anyone else. The butterflies you had when they said, "I love you". Their simple but sincere "Good morning" and "Good night" texts. The way your heart broke after a fight. That overwhelming urge to do anything just to talk to them one last time before you fall asleep. Their smile, their laugh. Your heart won't forget them. You'll miss all the things you disliked about that person. When your heart finds true love, it attaches itself on to them. So when they're upset, you're upset. When they're happy, you're happy. It's like your mood changes depending on how they feel. Your heart beats whenever you see them and your mind will be filled only with the thoughts of the person you love. You can never really forget the person you once loved, because once you think you're over them, those feelings you thought were long lost will come rushing back to you.

Labels: random

I miss you so much.
@ 6:01 PM

This hurts.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010 @ 11:02 PM

Worst feeling:
@ 9:10 PM

Losing someone you thought you had, but you never did.

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I think my desktop looks pretty damn organized/spiffy.